Blah blah blah…….

I know its been quite a while since I blogged in here. The truth is, I really didn’t feel like blogging cuz all that would come out would be sadness. Life hasn’t been great lately. Yes, I have great friends. But only few actually know what is going on in my life. I’ve gone back to withdrawing from people. Don’t ask why. I just feel like it.

When theres nothing much left to say, what can you do? Nothing - exactly. Not everyone understands me. So why bother explaining? Don’t. Some of my friends don’t understand why I’m not joining them when they go out. They think I don’t have time for them. They are wrong. Its just that they would be all happy and I wouldn’t. It wouldn’t be fair to show up with my crabby face.

I just don’t know. I rather be by myself. I feel even worse when I found out about something so hurtful, you can only imagine. I can’t say what though. A few know. They know because they take one look at me and notice the red swollen eyes. Curiousity tends to kick in.

I’d have to thank Ulrica, Yeen and Sasha for cheering me up. Besides the people I work with, I don’t think anyone else knows. Sigh.