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Mike woke me up today. My dear, why are you always awake so early?! Sleep la. Sleep - good ^_^ . I know la, its your first day of work tomorrow. Sigh. I’m the only jobless, I mean semi-jobless one now. Lol.

It’s noon when I came downstairs. Hungry. So I went looking for food. Yay! I found meat dumplings. Yummy! Ulrica and Shih Yeen were smsing like crazy. Wah lau eyy - so early la.. Hehe! And we decided to meet up in Sunway at 4. Thats when Yeen finishes her group discussion. So we went to Sunway Pyramid and my salary is out! Nope, I am still broke. Hahaha! We bought McD’s which the guy charged us less for one burger. Hey! Its our gain cuz we realized when we were paying the parking. Oh well. ^_^

We ate in the car, screaming and laughing the hell away. So reaching home, I slept till like 7 something. Slept for a while only. Ahh, sleep - good. Then my mum was like talking oh-so-loudly and I woke up and came online. Was online a while and then Mike came on and said " Yam cha?" I said okie cuz Viv was coming along. Man, I miss that babe!!

I just came back from my yam cha session. It was so funny! Mun Wei was also there and we were all laughing like crazy. He tells great jokes! My sifu in all the crazy stuff. Hehe..! So in the car, I was telling Mike and Viv about the incident yesterday. I really appreciate their support. Thats why I love them so much. Mike, sorry to say this, we’re like "sisterz" Lolz!!

My initial thought was, Mike is so gonna tell me " I told you so ". He was probably thinking it but he didn’t wanna say anything cuz its my relationship and its my right to make decisions that will affect how I feel. Thanks. I’m learning to be in a relationship and I need the support of people who mean the world to me.

Yeen, I want some ice cream!!! — muaxxx!

Mike woke me up today. My dear, why are you always awake so early?! Sleep la. Sleep - good ^_^ . I know la, its your first day of work tomorrow. Sigh. I’m the only jobless, I mean semi-jobless one now. Lol.

It’s noon when I came downstairs. Hungry. So I went looking for food. Yay! I found meat dumplings. Yummy! Ulrica and Shih Yeen were smsing like crazy. Wah lau eyy - so early la.. Hehe! And we decided to meet up in Sunway at 4. Thats when Yeen finishes her group discussion. So we went to Sunway Pyramid and my salary is out! Nope, I am still broke. Hahaha! We bought McD’s which the guy charged us less for one burger. Hey! Its our gain cuz we realized when we were paying the parking. Oh well. ^_^

We ate in the car, screaming and laughing the hell away. So reaching home, I slept till like 7 something. Slept for a while only. Ahh, sleep - good. Then my mum was like talking oh-so-loudly and I woke up and came online. Was online a while and then Mike came on and said " Yam cha?" I said okie cuz Viv was coming along. Man, I miss that babe!!

I just came back from my yam cha session. It was so funny! Mun Wei was also there and we were all laughing like crazy. He tells great jokes! My sifu in all the crazy stuff. Hehe..! So in the car, I was telling Mike and Viv about the incident yesterday. I really appreciate their support. Thats why I love them so much. Mike, sorry to say this, we’re like "sisterz" Lolz!!

My initial thought was, Mike is so gonna tell me " I told you so ". He was probably thinking it but he didn’t wanna say anything cuz its my relationship and its my right to make decisions that will affect how I feel. Thanks. I’m learning to be in a relationship and I need the support of people who mean the world to me.

Yeen, I want some ice cream!!! — muaxxx!

I woke up late again. I didn’t even hear the damn alarm go off. * Arrgh! * What a way to start my day. Oh well. It gets worse, listen..

I reach college and well, as usual there will be problems. So yea, I find out that the subject that I have left, well they are all evry screwed up and I most probably have to do 2 subject in another college and go back to college and get an exemption. They changed the subjects also. And All together, I’d have to add another 1k to my course. Which shitty college I’m talking about? Sepang Institute of Technology. Useless. Please don’t study there. Its a waste of time and money.

So anyway, I go to Reginald’s house to wake him up and when I’m right beside him. "She" (I don’t think I’m allowed to mention names just in case.. )calls and refers to him as "darling". I mean, hello, she speaks so loud, I can so hear every word! Hmm.. Here’s todays shocker for me. She asks him " do you miss me? " . The obvious reply would be " no ". "She" then asks, "how come you don’t miss me? "

Holy Mother. Talk about stupidity. I wanted to scream out " wake up bitch! " . Patience got the better side of me ( Thanks Ulrica! ) The best part would be, he just looked at me as if nothing was wrong. We had another " talk " and its nothing for me to worry about cuz he is with me and he trusts me going out with other guy friends. So I should trust him.I’m not intimidated by her. Its just that I don’t know where she placed her dignity and also her brains. Thats a real wonder.

We reach the Post Office at aound 12.35 and I have to renew my drivers license and I park illegally right outside the Post Office. So I go inside and the number machine is jammed. So I wait and I wait. (you know la, malaysian style) Finally, someone comes to fix it. And I was shoved behind. So there I was shoving people back. After the amount of shoving done, I was still behind 19 people.

Reginald called me and he told me that he wanted to move my car but it wouldn’t start. I panicked and called Ulrica. ( Thanks for coming to help. Really appreciate it! ) And I called my mum. She called the mechanic and we waited. They came pretty fast and it was the battery problem. Totally dead. So they changed it. Its now a " maintenance free " battery. Great!

"He" called me again today. "He" called me yesterday night and I picked up. Sigh. "He" called me today and I answered and I told him we’d talk later. We never did. I don’t intend to. Its crazy. No more contact, remember?! Oh well.. I’m sleepy. NItez.

Muaxxx!

Ahh.What a crazy day. But its all good. I’m online with Yeen and she’s making me laugh. Damn. USJ - when we meeting up la babez?! We NEED a girls night out, or a girls afternoon out. Whatever it is. We need it!

Call me blob, jane-blob. Yes, lately I somewhat resemble a blob. Ahh, the wonders of being lazy. I love it! Teeeeheeee!!

I woke up to a phone call from Marcia. The poor girl didn’t even go for her last day. Its all good. The hell with Citra la! What do you all say?! She called me asking me if I wanted to go for breakfast and I told her, gimme a few minutes, I need to brush my teeth. Lol. Then we went to Bukit Tinggi.. Sat there and talked, talked and talked! The food there is bloody expensive by the way.. So anyway, after talking till 12 something, Mike called her and she told him she was out with me and he was like " Yea, I’ve been trying to call her ".

So we decided to go to Cathay for lunch cuz Edison, Winnie and Chen Yih are going to be there. I was at Marcia’s place and she has a huge tv in her room! Whoa.! She changed and we waited for Mike to come get us. My hair was a mess so I straightened it. Gosh, I miss straight hair..!

There we were, sharing a small square table. All the 6 of us. Its not an uncommon sight in Cathay. The place may be small, but the food is ddddddelicious!

After that, Mike wanted to check Proton cars out so we went to the showroom in Giant..We walked inside and walked and walked and I came back after that.. I watched the eye 10 and that was one freaking funny movie witha sad ending.. But its all good..!

Now I’m at home and kinda screwed.. I hope not la. Cuz someone who wasnt supposed to see my msn nick, saw my msn nick! Shit la. Double shit!.. Ahh, like Shih-Yeen-mon said, he isnt important la. So I’m like "whatever!"

Its only 7.. Sigh. Whats planned for tonight? I dunno. I sure wanna know! Call me… Beep me.. Or something!.. Muaxxx !!

Okay, waking up this morning to as sms sent by Yeen wasn’t exactly a happy moment. Yea, I was glad she finally decided to reply to USJ. It wasn’t even in the morning.. Oh well, maybe my sudden loss of mood would be due to last night. I mean it wasn’t anything big. Just a huge amount of suspicion.. Ulrica called me and the second I told her I wasn’t in the mood of going to Zouk to see some Levi’s competition, she knew there was something definitely wrong.

So I told her, I told her that something feels wrong. You don’t need signs or anything cuz when you know something is wrong, its wrong. No reasons needed. Thinking about it would only make it even more confusing.

Like everything else in my life isn’t confusing enough. Why do I always seem to end up with so much drama? Really, I don’t go begging for it. It somehow always follows me around. Or maybe I have a tag on my forhead which reads "loser" or something as lifeless as that.

Right now, I feel so blur. I seem to always be blur but thats not what I mean. I’m lost. Have you ever trusted someone so much only to lose that trust the worst way imaginable? Yea, I did. When I think about it, I feel I might be over reacting, and then I think again, and I feel I have a right to feel hurt.

So what’s a girl left to do? I quote " Patience Janie, patience." So I guess, here I’ll be with a whole load of patience waiting…. Waiting for what? Yea, I’d like to know too. Hopefuly I’d get the answer soon, cuz its getting mighty annoying waiting for something to happen.

Thanks for the comment Mike. Appreciate it. LOL. ^_^

Hmm.. Friends. Friends the people who stand by you through thick and thin. But sometimes I feel friends aren’t supposed to understand everything about you. They only need to understand enough about you to accept you. Reading your moods and your mind is an added bonus.

Sometimes, people don’t understand pain or misery. They most of the time. Which I clearly understand why..its cuz they have never experienced it before. To me, when I feel pain, I shut people out. Its my own way of coping with it. Some can take it. Some can’t.

To those who stuck with me through my crazy times, thanks. You don’t know how much your support means to me. This goes out to my BFFZ!! Muaxxx guys.

I wish he would leave me alone. I just am so fed up. Why is everything about him? Maybe its my mistake that I let him into my life. I may have said sorry to him in the past. I take it back. He doesn’t deserve it. He thinks he is damn great. Yeaaaa right. I see his "greatness" now. Thank God its not too late.

I should shut him out of my life. He cares about nothing but himself. Its not only my opinion, but the opinion of many as well. I wish he would wake up and see whats going on around him. If only. I guess people like him don’t change. There is so much more to life! I hope I taught you enough to get through. Talk about others being underachievers! Please, look at your life first. You think you’re a great example. Puhleeze!

If you would have asked me like a week back what I thought, I would have said that he isn’t so bad. Ask me now, after I’ve realize what a shit he is, I’d answer, I absolutely hate everything about him!

Call me naive, whatever, I just thought he wasn’t all that bad and there’s something more to him. Yea, there was definitely something more to him. Some crazy fc*ked up attitude! And that is something I so don’t need.

I don’t wanna be associated with him in anyway what-so-ever from this moment on. Actually I stopped all contact with the jerk. Which makes me feel great! I just need to vent out my frustration about the idiot cuz he so needs a life and compared to what he put me through, this is nothing! What a pity eh..

Wanna know who I’m talking about? Refer to my msn nick.