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This past few days have been great compared to every other day. Maybe its because I have people that matter alot to me being around me. I know this may sound stupid and I’d have to stay up all night tonight editing my assignment, but I feel great!

I woke up feeling great! I followed my mum out the whole day today and I came back feeling great! Everything is just great! Wonderful!

Umm.. I think I’m in love! With who? Isn’t it obvious? Sigh. Duh! My wuv wuv la! Blek..

Okay, I’m slightly insane as well. Its because they pushed my exams forward!! I have less than 2 weeks to study and I’m so not prepared! I’m so blur. Like a sotong! So many hands but cannot catch anything. Grrr.

Oh yea, I’m also pissed off because of that certain someone who can’t stop talking shit with me. I mean, why pretend to get along with me when you actually go about bitching about me? Didn’t it occur to you that I WILL eventually find out? My gosh! People can be so stupid.. Grr! Useless!

Lets go for a holiday!

I might have been wrong about a certain someone. She is not as bad as I thought. Come to think of it, she had nothing to do with this whole situation in the first place.

Its just when people start talking, shit happens. Sometimes, people can be real backstabbers. They are so nice infront of you but evil behind you. They make up stories and say mean things about you.

Just because they are having problems of their own doesn’t mean they have to say mean things about other people do they?

Take myself for example, I know someone who bitches about me behind my back. The person has done some pretty mean things and also made up stories to a few people. I know all about it but I’m just keeping quiet to see how far the person will go. The person went really far. The person doesn’t even know anything, yet, claims to know everything.

Wanna know something? What ever I write in my blog, does not mean that its about me. And if its about me, how well do you think you know me? Just take for example, the most recent thing I’m writting about, may hav something to do with a company I no longer work with. But wait a minute! Which company do I mean? Lemme see, I work for FGN, Starbucks, Clinique and Acorn.

Like I said, you might think you know, but you have no idea.

I know my blog seems really interesting, but if this is going to continue where what ever I write becomes some stupid story, I don’t need it. If I write about relationships, it doesn’t mean my relationship has problems, I’m just relating to what I know. I have friends, don’t I?!

I just don’t get it how some people can be so desperate for attention that they stop using their brains. I know someone like that. The person claims to be able to relate to practically anything you tell the person. * Probably asking yourself, "is she talking about me????" * Please shut your brain.

FYI, I don’t think anyone who is in my friendster really knows her. She’s my relative. Jessie knows who I’m talking about la. Duhh.

See! Simple things like that can get people crazy. I mean, when did everyone get so perasan?

Another human trait, people tend to judge others without thinking. They only judge on what their opinion is. Like how I was wrong to judge Maggie. Maggie, I’m really sorry for thinking bad things about you. I should have known better.

Look, now again your brains start to wonder what is it that I thought about Maggie, could it be that its something to do with the fact that we were never close from start and that now things are going to change? Or about when we fought about standard operating procedures? Or when we had a small misunderstanding when we were working? Only we know and thats all that matters.

When you start assuming things, this is where misunderstandings happen.

It can be so many things okay, so use your brains for something better, especially to those people who are so free to read my blog. Go work or study lah!

Wanna hear something amusing? People think I’m intimidated by sms’ sent by unknown numbers. Please, if you had the ‘balls’ and ‘brains’ you’d confront me yourself.

You think hiding behind some stupid sms typed in chinese which says " cibai, go back fcuk ur mother " is gonna make me scared? Please la, why don’t you go back to primary school and learn some proper english and some manners. Since we’re on the topic of my mother, your mother. Didn’t your mother teach you manners? Aww, now thats a shame isn’t it?

Play with fire and you’re gonna get burned. Gosh! People are really not using their brains these days are they?

Which part of " I have nothing to do with this " don’t you understand? Its none of my business and I certainly do not want to have anything to do with this. Its not my fault people look for me for advice. I just tell them straight what I think and its up to them to think for their own self.

I really hate it when I get blamed for something I did not even do. It wasn’t me who did stupid things. Is being there for a friend wrong? Sigh.

I’m not angry that I received those sms’. I’m just angry that people don’t realize their own mistakes and keep blaming me for their stupidity. I’m not the one making crappy decisions, so why blame me? I didn’t do anything wrong, so I have nothing to be afraid of.

People can say all they want, but in reality, its what you think that matters. If you seem to think you are right most of the time, yet you make stupid decisions and blame others, face it, you’re stupid and you should use your brains. Oh you know, your brains, in that things that sits on your neck, thats called your head by the way.. Sigh!

Angry as I may seem, I pity the person who sent me that sms. I know its really rude but I can’t be angry with a brainless chicken can I? Its just a waste of time and I’ve got loads to do with my time.

" If you wanna be somebody, if you wanna go somewhere, you’d better wake up and pay attention. "

I like that saying. It means alot doesn’t it? Anyway, today, I’d like to talk about the crazy things people do.

People tend to do all sorts of crazy things. Look at me for example, I’m a crazy person. I have so many jobs. I mean, its not that I work each and every one of em’ everyday, its just that I am a pretty freelance person. I work jobs I see fit. This kinda happens especially when cash is running short.

Starbucks doesn’t pay much actually, I’m hardly on schedule anyway, so I need to find other means of money. Paying for almost everything on your own can be really tough at times especially when you feel so suffocated! Not everyone understands how that feels.

I also happen to be a very free spirit. Okay, this means that I like to do what I want, when I want with limitations of course! Its not like I lie to my boyfriend to go out with another guy. Its things like, " I feel like watching a movie today, since no one is free, I’ll go myself. " or " I’m in need of a sinful scoop of ice cream, Yeen, you free? " or " girls night out tonight! " . I don’t need to go checking with my boyfriend if its okay or not cuz I wouldn’t do anything stupid. ^_^

Weeee~! Wuv is back.. My mum and I picked him and his mum up from the airport today, we went for lunch as well. Umm, it was scary! So dangerous. The mum’s were planning to go on holiday together. My mum travels alot lately with her friends and his mum is retired and likes to travel as well. Yikes! In a way its great, in a way, uh oww!!! Oh well, its good that they get along. Haha!

So whats it gonna be? So many crazy things happening right now. Whoa. You know, sometimes when you look back and say " what the hell was I thinking?! " Yea, I’m having that moment right now.

Btw, I just thought of something. Can you love and like 2 different people at the same time? I was talking to someone the other day and it seemed to have dawned on me that it is possible.

So now the question of " love / like / lust " which is which anyway?

I don’t think its right to like someone else when you’re already in a relationship. If you claim " I still love my boyfriend, I just like him." Please, go dip your head in a grease trap (if you don’t know what it is, look it up) cuz clearly, you aint thinking right.

If you love someone, you won’t hurt them. To me, I feel that, if you’re not happy with a person, leave. Its as simple as that. Some may claim its not. Okay, so then, we look at it in another angle.

Stick with the girl. You’re not happy, your friends know you’re unhappy. Its not what she does, you just don’t seem to feel the way you used to feel but you’ve been in the relationship for about 2 years and you don’t wanna start new so you’d rather just try to fix it.

Okay, fix it. Try to fix it. Does it work? Yes? Great! No? Leave! Start packing! Whats the point in staying in a relationship when clearly, you’re unhappy? Seriously. However, in some cases, stay in the relationship only if you know its gonna work out because both of you are committed and nothing or no one is gonna come between.

****News flash!!****

Suki won! Suki won! I’m not surprised though. I wonder why! Lol. Anyway, the 3 of them were great and Alif is cute. Hardy har har. Small kid ler oi! Weeeehoooo~!!

Aii.. I’m missing my wuv wuv.. He will be back tomorrow! I saw him so much this week. Gotta spend lotsa time with him before I leave. About that, umm, kinda nervous cuz I don’t really know how long I’m gonna be there.

Like I said, if everything goes well, I’ll be there for a few months. Its gonna be a lonely Christmas away from my family. I don’t think I’m going back to Singapore this year. I hope wuv can come to KK and see me. Muaxxx!

I’m goin to Kota Kinabalu! Omg! I’m so excited! Maybe its cuz its the first time I’m going anywhere alone. Not exactly alone, cuz I’m going with other sbux m’sia partners.

Hmm. Anyway, love is in Sarawak now. He will be back on Saturday. *Yawn* Kinda tired cuz I kinda didn’t get any sleep last night.Many things were on my mind. Love was also leaving for his mini holiday..

I was on my way back from the airport and she called me. She was crying. Something very hurtful happened. The guy who which will probably be reading this later on will probably say that its none of my business and I have no right to write it in here. He should have thought of it before he did something so disgusting.

There are 2 people I work with who has no self respect. They are so lucky I’m not mentioning their names. Lets call the guy stupid and the girl slut. Imagine the guy actually saying that " I have no right to judge anything. "

Now that is really funny! Cuz I don’t need to hear any explainations. I wasn’t the one hurt. I’m not judging anyone. I call them stupid and slut because of the immoral thing they did. I may not know the whole story, cuz I don’t need to. I know enough to know its immoral.

So whatever you’re gonna blame, or whatever you’re gonna say, I don’t care. If I do care, you’d claim I’m judging you and whatsoever. So, you can say what you want, it doesn’t mean a thing. Loser.

Ahh, enough of that. No point in talking about it. They don’t even realize what they did was wrong. Oh well.

Not all girls are nice. Lol. I used to think that guys are bad. Girls are no better. Correction. Some girls are no better. My gosh! I just don’t see how girls can go around doing what guys do! Mainly, hurt others.

Some guys can be total shit. Girls can be total bitches!! They can be so nice one minute and horrid the next! They can say such mean things. Its not that all girls do this. Most of them do and most of the time its harmless stuff. Sometimes, the things that come out of their mouths can be so hurtful! Hmm. To that someone or some people who said mean things.. What goes around, comes around…..

BITCHES!!!

In my last blog, I seemed to state that all men are evil.. Truth is, Majority of men are evil. The minority are what we call ‘keepers’.

*** I’m gonna go to K.K.. Yippie!! I’m gonna go to K.K!! For a month of more if I like!!! Weeee~~!! The only sad part is my love will be here.. Sighh.. ***

I wanna know, " why do boyfriends lie and girlfriends cry " ? Looking back, I realize that most of the time, girls cry because of guys. Bare in mind that " if he loves you, he won’t make you cry " does not apply in reality. Like it or not, he does make you cry.

Guys tend to lie, and girls, tend to cry. The reason? Okay, to make things a little easier, lets include a senario.

Senario 1

Girlfriend tries to call boyfriend, boyfriend doesn’t answer. Girlfriend thinks nothing of it because girlfriend ‘trusts’ boyfriend. Girlfriend tries calling another 2 or 3 times. No answer. About an hour later, girlfriend calls again, finally, boyfriend answers. Girlfriend asks why boyfriend didn’t pick up, boyfriend says that he was sleeping and just woke up. Girlfriend feels bad and says, " its okay then, you go back to sleep ". Girlfriend confides to bestfriend who calls later.

A few weeks down the road and everything is not fine. Small fights happen and boyfriend and girlfriend sees less of each other. Girlfriends best friend takes her out for lunch. Suddenly, the bestfriend mentiones that, " if you were to see my bf with another girl, will you call me and tell me " ? Hell yeah! Is girlfriends reply. " Okay ". Says bestfriend. Remember one day when I called you and asked you if everything was alright and something about your boyfriend? " Huh?? " Replies girlfriend. Bestfriend continues, " A friend called me and told me she saw your boyfriend with another girl and they looked like they were having a great time. A friend called me asking me if she should call you and tell you. I then called bestfriend 2 and asked her what should we do. We all then agreed that we shouldn’t tell you because you were juggling a few jobs and was stressed out."

Girlfriend thinks for a while and remembers. At first, girlfriend is furious towards bestfriends. Then, she thinks to herself, he lied to me. How easy it sounded when he lied about it. Girlfriend cries. After a few days, girlfriend asks boyfriend if he has been keeping anything away from her, he easily and confidently says "NO". Girlfriend starts to cry and tells boyfriend she knows about it. Boyfriend gives her some story to defend himself. Promises girlfriend he will never hurt girlfriend again. Girlfriend shuts up thinking its all her fault, goes home and cries.

Senario 2

Girlfriend has been through a traumatizing incident. Girlfriend leans on friends and also boyfriend. Even from before, girlfriend hears about boyfriend meeting girls but thinks not much of it because boyfriend promised he won’t hurt her. One day, it all made sense. A friend couldn’t take that boyfriend was seeing his ex girlfriend alot. * Boyfriend really loves this ex girlfriend * Friend told girlfriend that many friends have seen boyfriend take out ex girlfriend for lunch or whatever many times and no one knows how to tell girlfriend. Girlfriend then text boyfriend and asks boyfriend to tell her honestly if he has been seeing his ex girlfriend. He says yes. Boyfriend also says that he never meant to hurt girlfriend. * YEAH RIGHT! * But girlfriend is hurt. Very hurt. Girlfriend has been through alot and just wants to rest.

Senario 3

Girlfriend calls boyfriend, boyfriend doesn’t answer. Girlfriend calls 5 times. Boyfriend answers and says he is at home sleeping……….. Girlfriend goes home and cries.

Lol, what a stupid girlfriend right? She keeps giving the guy a chance and he keeps lying. I think most girls put up with guys like this because they love the guy. Does the guy even know? I once came across a very frustrated girlfriend who told het boyfriend that he is losing her because he keeps hurting her and he doesnt even realise it because he is too busy. Kinda sad when you think about it.

Guys telling girls that they dont know how to be a good boyfriend but they go around being great boy-friends to their pretty hot girl-friends. Doesn’t really make sense does it?

Maybe thats why theres a saying.. " Single is simple, double is trouble ". I just don’t understand how girls be so patient and loving eventhough guys keep hurting them..Sigh..

I don’t know why but I woke up this morning feeling really down. Its like one of those days where you wake up and you just hate everything. The smallest things gets to you.

I woke up this morning cuz I could not breathe. My tonsils are swollen again. I hate this. I hate feeling like I don’t want to go out and do anything. I did go out. Sigh. I am out now.

I feel like screaming out loud. I feel like telling everyone I’m not alright. I just want to rest. I want to take a break from everything. The feeling is just so damn unexplainable!

I feel slightly confused. I don’t know why. I thought I knew what I was doing but I now don’t. I know it sounds slightly insane but thats how I feel. Maybe I’m trying to vent out my frustration the wrong way. Who knows. I sure don’t.

Blahhhh blahhhhh blahhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!