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Okay, so I’m leaving this Saturday. Umm. I kinda feel scared. I mean, the only sentence in my head right now is " OMG, YAN, YOU’RE LEAVING ME ALONE!! "

See, the reason I was so excited at first was because Yan would be there with me and she knows her way around the place and I have a friend there, so it would be great! We planned to go around and even go on a short holiday when we’re there.

Its not her fault that she can’t go anyway. Her stewpig supervisor or was it cordinator keeps rejecting her thesis. Aih. That sucks.

I was having dinner with Sandra and it was great. We were laughing and everything. We ate so much! SHE ate so much!! I was feeling super tensed up and I felt really hungry. So we ordered nasi lemak with fried chicken. After that, I still felt like eating something, so I ordered a roti bom, and she ordered naan. After that, she ordered a roti bom. and she drank 3 glasses of drinks! Mind you, she’s as skinny as a stick!!

<– see her stick-like hands? Hehe..

Hehe.. Super thin.. ^_^ and she eats more than me! My gosh! And I’m double her size.. Where does she store all the food she ate? Its a wonder…~

Anyway, we were talking about so many things and it was a pity cuz she was in Melaka over the weekend as well. We didn’t have a chance to meet up though. She was taking pictures in Jonker street. While I was in another part of Melaka.

Haha, wanna know something funny? Right after my exams, I was in PD with my family, the next week I was in Melaka, and this week, I’ll be in KK. Haha. Its like a long long holiday!

<– My flowah!! Yeen n Yan gave it to me before my exams. So sweet ya? I loveeeeeeeeeeeee sunflowers ^_^

<– Both of us in Melaka ~posers!!! ^_^ Taken outside his aunts house.

Hmm.. Its been a blinking long time since I’ve blogged. Grrr! No time la.. hehe. But these few days, I’ll be on. Cuz I might not have internet connection when I get there.~~ Blek!!

I love kids! Wee~! Correction, I love to play with other people’s kids ^_^

<– This is my second cousin Mitchell. Isn’t he adorable? Big eyes!

<– This is Reginald’s second cousin Shannon. He is so adorable! He makes a pig face which he looks so cute!!

I love kids! Haha, so fun to play with ^_^.. Mitchell and Shannon are the smily kinda babies. They don’t cry and scream and all that much. Thats why I like to play with them. Weee~!!

Show me a person with direction in life and I’ll show you a sign. Just when I thought I knew someone, the person turned out to be someone else. I hate it when things like this happen. Why do people pretend to be something they are not? What is the purpose of being nice to you when inside, its all hate?

Right now, I’m confused. I really am. I have so many things to do but are they the right things to do? Should I? Should I not?

Have you ever felt so down that you just want to lean on a person and the person is never there? Call me invisible girl.

Emotionally unavailable. I guess that is the problem. Ahh, fizzles!! It doesn’t matter anyway.

I’m supposed to be studying. My brain needs a break.. its never good being too frustrated. I just need a break. A long break away from everything. Just when I thought I’ve had enough, theres more.

Jon, I’m gonna take your advice. I’ve got loads to think about.

Do I speak too fast? Lol. Someone seems to think so. Someone = Peter. Since he doesn’t read my blogs.. Muahahaha ( evil laughter ) Okay. I admit. I do have the tendency to speak fast most of the time. Its because, I don’t want to wasnt anytime on talking. Get it? Umm.. In a simpler way of saying this.. I have many things to do and if I speak fast, I get to finish what I wanna do. Lol.

I guess I can start to speak a little slower. For those who can’t understand half of what I’m saying. ^_^

Lastly, its a gift okay. Not everyone can do this. I should enter competitions. Lol. Nehh..

Oh yea, I was listening to the radio this morning ( No, its not another lame joke. blek ) and they were asking opinions about " love at first sight " Does it really exist or is it actually attraction.

I feel that is no such thing is love at first sight. Its attraction. If its not attraction, I wouldn’t even bother looking at the person in the first place. Attraction however does not equal to lust.

Its quite impossible to say " we fell in love at first sight " Hmm. Think about it. You both looked at each other and fell in love?? Okay, if you say it happens all the time.. No wonder the break up and divorce rate is sky high. Ha!

I wanna go on a holiday.. ~~~

9 more days to go! Grr. I hate this! I really hate this.

They pushed forward my exams. I hate Sepang Institute of Technology. The stupid registry. Bloody hell, the stupid person responsible for changing the exam date is a moron. Yes, I’m extremely pissed off.

Not only that sux, a few weeks back I was planning what to buy for reginald’s birthday cuz its in December, and it didn’t hit me till last Saturday that I won’t be here. My gosh! I won’t be here for his birthday, Christmas, New Year, Kevin’s birthday and my mum’s birthday. Hmm, what a shitty time to not be around.

I don’t feel like going anymore. I mean, it sounded like a great idea at first, now, hmm, I will be missing so many things. Wuv said its okay and that he rather sleep then go out. I feel so bad. I guess I’ll have to make it up to him. Lol, I have no idea how though.

Time is passing so fast and I have a million things to do. I even have to re edit an assignment which I am in no mood to do. Grrr! I have to pass it up tomorrow.

I have something to say actually, its about all the people who can’t mind their own business. This goes out to a special someone who doesn’t know when they are not needed around. They think everyone likes them. Truth is, many don’t. People are nice because they have ulterior motives.

I can’t say I’m actually nice, I am just neutral because these small politics do not affect me because I do not give a damn.

People have black hearts because they compare. Why do they need to compare? Life is simple actually, if all you need is RM10 a day to survive, and you make more than enough to survive, why pry into other people’s business to find out and compare? Most people are never contented. Thats when stupidity takes over. Sigh.

I was actually going to start on a topic where many would have a sense of " I know someone like that " but I won’t. You know why? It doesn’t matter anymore. No point in talking about it. The person is brainless.

" You dig your grave, you lie in it "

I’d have to agree with that. I’m not perfect. I know that for a fact, I have done so many stupid things, one thing which I regret most. ( before you start assuming shit, you don’t even have a clue ) If I could turn back time, I guess things would be different. Sometimes, a person can be so confused, they do stupid things.

An example of stupid things I’ve done are scolding people for small things, staying out till wee hours of the morning, clubbing like crazy, smoking, not beating the crap outta some people, being too patient at times. All of that got me into trouble. Lol.

One thing that I pray I won’t do is, get so pissed with people who think "they are all that" and tell them to their faces that they are immature and stupid and should kill themselves. I’m so close to that right now. I can’t take their stupid pretend games anymore. Why don’t they just wake up and get the hell away?

Why do people think they know me well enough to judge me? Please please tell me. Seriously, not many know me well enough and those who think they know me well enough, don’t.

I don’t judge you, so why do you wanna judge me? Everytime I write something in my blog, you assume things. For example, if I were to write, boyfriends should care more.. blah.. blah.. blah.. You will assume " reginald isn’t treating her right.. blah.. blah.. blah.." PLEASE SOAK YOUR STUPID HEAD IN THE GREASE TRAP.

I could have read someone else’s blog and agreed on it, or I could be writting about my friend, or I would have made a comment about it on some other people that I read in a mag.

You might think you bloody know, but you have no bloody idea.

Wanna hear a joke? I heard it off hitz.fm this morning while driving back.

What do you call a dear wit no eyes and is blind?

No idea.. Get it?!?!?! ( no eye-dear )

Ok ok.. another one..

What do you call a dear with no eyes, which is blind and can’t move?

Still no idea.. HAHAHAH!!! Get it?!??!?!? ( still no eye-dear )

Its not lame okay. Its a funny joke. Cute actually. Blek!