You came into my life with promises of happiness,
Why? Why did you take it all away?
You took away all that mattered to me including my trust,
I should have left you without anything to say,
How could it be that I’m the one who is down,
Can’t you even notice this is all wrong?
I pray for you to love me, to care, to appreciate,
I realize now, its not worth it,
Its too late, my mind is made.
I remember waking up and hugging Zane goodbye. I saw Nasuha but I didn’t see Jen. So I continued sleeping.
I woke up again at quarter to 10 only to find an empty room. I walked past all the beds and no more stuff was lying next to them. All that was left was just the mattress and also the rock hard pillows.
Yesterday night was a weird night where I was awake till 4 talking. Talking about so many issues. Some funny, some sad. Jen was drunk and she slept downstairs, Zane wasn’t feeling so well. Nasuha was crying I think. Its because I heard sobs. Melisa is in Kundasang with her dad.
Zane left us all a bottle with a msg on it. A bottle reminding us all of the good times. Jen left me a note and her Seventeen mag. The one which she bought eventhough it was overpriced. I like that mag alot. It was really sweet of her to give it to me.
I miss them both so much. Especially miss the times we went clubbing. Oh, the memorable shyt that was recorded by Kevin which shall never meet the public eye~ ha!
I actually cried because I felt as if I will never see them again. I will, no doubt. There will be a difference however. No more late night talking, the crazy cooking and dinners at home. The hanging around town just drinking and chilling out. It will never be the same again.
I feel as if the ‘family’ over here is breaking up. So many has left. Melisa and I are the only 2 girls left in the house. She will be leaving soon.
I really feel affected because this is the first time I’m away from home and I have a family to lean on. People who I have just met. People who accept each other, just like how a family does.
No matter what, life goes on right? People walk in and out of your life but the leave footprints. Memories. I will never experience this lifestyle ever again. I’m so gonna miss it.
This entry is dedicated to Starbucks Star Team Kota Kinabalu. To all the happy, sad, hardship, crazy moments. I regret not coming earlier. Stupid exams. To all that went back. To all thats still here. YOU GUYZ ROCK!!!!
Believe me when i say, nothing lasts. Only a month in KK and I have a great famly here. Everything is going great until a few days back, an email came out saying that partners have to go back to KL.
No, my name isn’t on the list,yet. Jen, Nasuha and also Zane are going back on the 14th. Melisa is going back on the 30th. That really sux.
Sometimes, we get so carried away being happy that we don’t see the end which is coming soon. I’m really sad that they have to leave soon.
Believe it or not. I went up mount Kinabalu. Yes, me. The girl who always thought shopping was considered a sport.. Blek! But I didn’t reach the peak though. I stopped 200 meters away cuz of breathing difficulties. A waste? Definitely not. A lesson in disguise? Hell yea! Bervie and Jen went all the way up. Hehe.
I met so many great people along the way up the mountain. Those who couldnt make it, these 2 girls, Pek Yee and Trisha from Singapore whom I shall never forget watched the sun rise with me. It was beautiful.
I’m really going to miss my family over here. Mama, papa, bros and lil sis.. and also TBF ( temporary boy friend ) ~ haha!
This working holiday has taught me so much. It has shown me who are the people I can lean on. Thanks Yeen loads for helping me out.. Muaxxx!
Surviving over here with just 600 bucks of salary is a night mare! No shit~! So its budgeting all the way.. I’m going to Labuan tomorrow with Jazil, kevin, Lokman, nana, Bervie and Jazil’s friend~. So its gonna be a chilling 2 days. Weee hooo~! With the PC fair going on from friday, the crowd has been CRAZZZZZY! Non stop busy ooooooo~
Oh well, I dunno when I’l be coming back, so muaxxx guys!
