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Everybody Hurts, The Corrs.

When your day is long
And the night
And the night is yours alone
When you think youve had enough
Of this life
Hang on

To know youre not alone.

Hmm. To start off, I wanna share something that happened yesterday. I was out with Viv at Cafe Flam. The most weirdest thing to ever happen to me is, I was approached by the manager. He asked me for my name and I said it was Jenny, and he actually noticed Viv and I who were sitting at the side bar.

He then came over and bought us 2 jugs of beer. He joined us quite a few times actually, even when Peter was there. Lol. He was like the bodyguard. Haha.

It was fun, till now. See, he told me that I don’t have to pay the cover charge and all next time I go there, all I gotta do is call him and I was like, okay.

We exchanged numbers and now he keeps calling and smsing me. I mean, why me? He has Viv’s number too. I’m the one with the boyfriend. Weird ain’t it? Lol.

But it feels quite nice, I mean, usually, ppl get in clubs by knowing the bouncers. I know the manager. Lol. Oh well. I’m gonna play paintball tomorrow. Sure gonna kena bully wan. Blek. I’ll be playin wit love and his cousins. Eeek!

Ohh yea, I ate fish porridge today.Yummy yummy porridge! Someone was sooo sweet to bring it for me because I couldn’t go out for lunch. Thanks Peter ^_^.

Listen to Rossa - Pudar

I’ve hit rock bottom in trying to describe how I feel right now. I’m talking to Kevin now. Kevin Ooi. The guy I refer to as potential husband. Haha. The guy who taught me to swim! No one has ever made me get into the water and hold my breath but him. So salute~~

I have been sitting here for almost 2 hours wondering what to type. I’m wondering what do I say next. What should I say? I know many read my blogs and I’m afraid to blurt out something I’m not supposed to, because, in the end, people make up assumptions about what I’m talking about and there will be a whole laaadeeedaaa situation.

There are many days which I feel happy and many when I feel crappy. So, when I’m happy, I talk about happy things. When I’m crappy, I talk about the crappy things. So, is it wrong to feel happy or sad different days or in the same day?

For example, I had lunch with a certain someone special ^_^, so for the rest of the day I’m happy so I’ll blog about happy things. However, at night, a friend tells me that someone said something not very nice about me behind my back, so then I’ll blog about the crappy stuff. Simple.

Hmm.. Listen to Talk About Our Love. ~

Today is not such a great day after all. I just found out my brother reformatted the pc and my files are gone! All my pictures in Sabah are gone. It feels like shyt. Total shyt. I feel so angry right now. Arrrgghh!! *kick* *punch!*

The flower business wasn’t a great success as well. I mean we did profit from it but, it was hard work. Way too hard for 3 lil gurls~ ^_^ Hmm. Sigh. I dunno. I just feel so messed up. Like I said, my luck is down. I have no idea why. I had great luck while I was in Sabah. Here, its just shyt! Shyt!!!! Grrr.

In hopes that the new year brings luck and happiness in my life and to the ppl around me. ^_^

I don’t sound pissed off, but I really am. Just too tired and blur to actually use vulgar words. Haha. Yan would be happy about this~

Today is the day I woke up feeling crappy. I had breakfast crappy. Not really really crappy la. It was part of the conversation that was crappy. Superly duperly crappy. I guess its the worst ever topic to talk about. Hmm. Nvm that.

I came back feeling crappy, and yes, I’m feeling pretty crappy right now.

I seriously don’t know why I came back to face crap like this. I mean, everyone has their problems, and they settle it slowly. In my case, I have no idea how to settle things.

Someone told me, "for a pissed person, you look kinda happy." Hmm. My downfall I guess. I can’t really show how I feel. Which really sux. I am starting to get crazy these days. I tend to yell at times, almost everytime lately. Haha. I yelled at some guy a few days back. He deserved it. He was a bloody insulting guy.

It doesn’t mean that when I’m smiling, I’m happy, right? I can’t go around sulking,can I? Nope, thats not the way I do things. That is, up till lately, where when I’m unhappy, I say mean things. Yes, really mean things.

Paranoia tends to kick in at that moment as well. Which makes me suddenly crazy, because I feel everyone is trying to hurt me. Haha. Now that sounds crazy. But know what I realize? I’m not the only one like this. Everyone has those moments. Those moments when things are not going well at all. Everything is all so messy and stupid.

"Leave Me Alone"

I’m getting tired of you pushing me ’round
Dragging me down
Making a sound because you wanna
I guess that’s why I like messing with you
Putting you through
A lesson or two, because I’m gonna
Before I go my own way
I just gotta say

Leave me alone
Get out of my face
I’m tired of love
Feeling so misplaced
Time for you to go
‘Cause I know I’m better off on my own, oh
Leave me alone

This isn’t gonna work
Don’t call me on the phone
Because I’m all out of words
I’ll face the unknown
Thinking about all the ways that I’ve grown
Oh, Leave me alone

There was the time I thought you were the one
Having some fun
Getting it done
What an illusion
‘Cause you were trying to take control of me
That couldn’t be, I need to be free of this confusion
Don’t give me a guilt trip, because I’m so over it

Leave me alone
Get out of my face
I’m tired of love
Feeling so misplaced
Time for you to go
‘Cause I know I’m better off on my own, oh
Leave me alone

This isn’t gonna work
Don’t call me on the phone
Because I’m all out of words
I’ll face the unknown
Thinking about all the ways that I’ve grown
Oh, leave me alone

Don’t turn around and don’t look back
I see right through all your selfless acts

Oh

Leave me alone
Get out of my face
I’m tired of love
Feeling so misplaced
Time for you to go
‘Cause I know I’m better off on my own, oh
Leave me alone

This isn’t gonna work
Don’t call me on the phone
Because I’m all out of words
I’ll face the unknown
Thinking about all the ways that I’ve grown
Oh, leave me alone

If you win your love

I’ll feel better on my own

Leave me alone

Dearest Ms Mian Ying,

Before we go further into the topic of that " the real special day " business, we must first understand what a guy a.k.a a lazy boyfriend is.

To my understanding, boys, see many things differently. What you view to be something wonderful, might be viewed as something boring and dull by "boys".

Those in the "boys" catagory may claim that girls are complicated creatures, I disagree as they sometimes tend to beat around the bush leaving girls in a confused and frustrated state. This act is clearly frowned upon!

So, to answer your question, I need to ask, " Kevin Khong! What do you mean????? " Lol.

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I feel quite alright. Yes, life isn’t all that bad. Hardy har har. Umm, I spoke to Jazil a few days back and it really made my day, or days. Hehe. Umm. Regi has been a real sweet heart as well, so I dunno, its all okay.

I have no idea what I wanna do with my life. I’ll be trying out a job on Sunday. I’ll be selling maxis broadband or something like that. Hehe. They pay well, so why not give it a try right?

Something today made me really happy. ^_^

In hopes that tomorrow brings smiles and joy, not sadness and despair! ~

Btw, anyone wanna buy flowers?? Hehe. Call me ~!

Hmm. Before I start, I know for a fact, many of you guys will wanna yell at me. Haha. I really don’t care. Its my bloody blog. This goes especially to Pravin. Haha.

So, this entry is all about Valentines day. Most say that this day is too commercialized. Also, most say that they don’t wanna spend like alot on dinner and everything cuz its a waste of money. Okay. You have your opinion. I have mine.

Its not about showing girls how you care for that one day only. Its about treating us girls special everyday, right? Okay, so why do you guys do things to hurt us girls? Haha.

Look at it this way, its a special celebrated day around the world. So why not just take your girl out for a night. Make her feel special. I can’t believe the stupid things ppl say at times. Grr. I’m not asking you to spend like rm500 on dinner and blah blah blah. Just a simple but meaningful dinner will do.

I bet she will get you something special on that day too. Its not like you are spending on her and its not the other way around right?

The next guy that comes up to me and says that Valentines day is blah blah blah is going to die. Seriously. If you don’t wanna take her out, then don’t. Don’t tell her that its not worth it and all that shyt.

I swear, if regi ever did that, I would kill him. Haha. This goes out to all those ppl who think that Valentines day is all about spending money. Its not. You can stay at home together, but cook her dinner or something, you know. If you can’t treat her nicely the whole year, at least do it on that day. ^_^

I kinda really like this song by Avril Lavigne. ^_^ it doesnt need to mean anything. I just like it.

"Fall To Pieces"

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can’t undo
If I had my way
I’d never get over you
Today’s the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

[Chorus:]
And I don’t wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don’t want to talk about it
And I don’t want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don’t want to talk about it
Cuz I’m in Love With you

You’re the only one,
I’d be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

[Chorus]

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

[Chorus without last line]

[Chorus]

I’m in love with you
Cuz i’m in love with you
I’m in love with you
I’m in love with you