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Its a crappy day with crappy happenings. I feel like giving up on everything. The other day someone asked me a question along the lines of, whats my purpose here.Err. I have no idea.

I mean, life to me is really simple actually, its just the people and enviroments that change everything. We all adapt ourselves to whatever changes that we face. So, what am I here for?

I used to think that I’m here for a reason, but now, I have no idea.

In a weird way, I feel there is no point in being rich except being able to afford a comfortable life. So why are people chasing wealth? Everyone was put on earth for a reason right? Whats my reason? What does God want me to do I wonder..

I’m feeling like Fall out boy - This aint a scene today. ^_^

I started class today. One word. Disaster! I knew no one in the class and those in it are, as yeen puts it, young punks. Rude young punks to be exact.

They have no respect for the lecturer at all. I was totally shocked. I mean, the lecturer was helpless against their fucked up attitude! I quote one remark to the lecturer when the most wannabe-cool-but-oh-so-tak-jadi-moron was asked a question, " why you ask me, go ask them la".

I dun mean to sound old, but I never heard anyone say such fucked up things to the lecturer. She is nice. If I had to go to work and face this kinda shit everyday, I’d kill the screwed up students. Sigh.

I’m just wondering, didn’t their parents teach them manners? Its a real wonder.

There’s this fucky bytch who sat behind me and was giving me bytchy looks. I mean whats up with all that attitude yo?! When I was asked to group up into a group of 4, I asked her if I could join and she said, yes, sure. A minute later, she was like, sorry, I think you better join another group. Stupid China Bytch.

Just cuz I don’t look chinese doesn’t mean I don’t understand anything right? Hmm. Whatever. I’m sick of being treated differently cuz I’m different. I’m unique. Hah.

I dunno, today didn’t go so well. The past two weeks have been bad. I have no idea why. I feel like I’m bad luck. I really do. Hmm.

I’m feeling like Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore today..

Listen to Hugh Grant & Drew Barrymore - Way Back into love.

I had a quite interesting day. Not bad for a gloomy wednesday. I managed to get a few things done. Haha. Hmm, I tried counting how many times a person could hurt me today and believe it or not, it was 14. Although the person insists its 13 times, well, its 14 if you count in *blah blah blah*.

Who hurt me? Well, someone. Before you go thinking, this person, that person blah blah blah. You’re wrong. Haha. How do I know you’re wrong? I know lah~~.

Lesson of the day would be : Don’t assume lah~~! Haha.

OOOOO… My nails are a funky sparkly black with pewtty pwetty stars! I have not done my nails in like 3 years. Haha. Starbucks ruins all funky nails eh!

Oh crappiness, I’m working on Saturday, oh well, at least my nails look pretty now. ^_^

Yepp, thats pretty much the highlight of my day.It was a nice day actually. Weeee~

Ooo.. When I was getting ready today, I was looking in the mirror and realized I put on some weight * damn all good food! haha * and I was putting on some makeup and I just felt ugly. I have no idea why.

I may have had people commenting that I have put on some weight since I came back and I dunno, I heard something about if I was slimmer and taller, I would look great. It only hit me when I was walking around today that I am thankful I look the way I do.

No one is perfect. Whats the point in looking so great anyway? I admit, looking great does make a person feel great, but shouldn’t the person already feel great by having a complete body with a brain that functions well?

I complain about my features when there are people telling me I look fine the way I am when I didn’t realize that there are people out there without a nose or with a deformed face.

To a special someone who is lanky, pretty, slim and fair, you should be thankful that you are almost perfect. I wouldn’t wanna be you eventhough you’re hot, its cuz I’m happy being me. Haha. Weird coming from me, the person who wants to be everyone else!

I mean, why should I wanna be someone else? I’m okay looking. I have a presentable face, presentable body and I have brains!! Its a complete package if you ask me.

Its not that I’m saying people shouldn’t care about how they look, what I mean is, people should be thankful and care for their own self. People shouldn’t listen to what others say about them.

I just downloaded this song which I listened to quite alot while I was in Sabah. The person who introduced me to this song was Christine. I’m not a huge fan of Indo songs cuz I don’t know many people who actually listen to Indo songs.. But this guy is quite funky.. Irwansyah.

Listen to Irwansyah - Pencinta wanita.

Hmm, I feel like I’ve lost a friend. The person and I don’t speak as much anymore and even if we do speak, it just feels weird. I dunno. Sigh. So much for friendship.

Today is going to be an okay day. Wanna know why? Its because I feel its going to be just fine. Haha. I feel kinda blank at the moment actually. Have so many things to do today. I have to go to college in the afternoon. That is gonna be a huge headache!

I’m actually looking forward to lunch with Yan. I have not seen her in a very long time! Kinda miss all those days we used to hang out. I think it was like everyday. Haha. ~

Hmm. I don’t feel like saying anything else. Just not in the mood. I hate it when people treat me funny and run around saying stupid things. Eee. Go get a life lah~~!

I’ve been down with the flu for almost 3 days now. Sigh. It seriously sux. I can’t even go out. Hmm, no one like to be around a sickly weakly eh.

Its been an eventful 3 days non the less. Lol. I didn’t even step out of my house to get the drama. Amazing isn’t it?!

Hmm. I’m in a weird situation.I can’t do something horridly wrong to someone else.. ala justin timberlake - what goes around comes around.

Lets say, I have to be totally honest to a group of people about something which isn’t my business in the first place, should I do it? Its supposed to be something right. Hmm. I have no idea. Is it?

My actions may bring someones life to ruins. So, if its for the good of things, why, why, why, don’t I feel good about ruining about someone’s life? *duhhhhhh~ its wrong! *

I know its more of a moral judgement question, but I can’t help think, can I be held responsible for the pain and hurt I caused to this person? Sigh. Hmm, maybe it won’t reach that extend but, I just don’t know.

I can’t exactly type it out here. Its soooo not according to standard operating procedures *duhhhhhhh*