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Its been quite a while since I wrote something that actually matters to me but today I’m feeling quite pissed of at a certain incident that happened recently.

I met one of my really good friends online today and she seemed pretty upset. Upon asking her what was bugging her, she started on about how guys can be so stupid and unfair. (hmm, I’d have to agree on that up to a certain level)

Story is, her boyfriend and her had a huge misunderstanding ( err, I was pretty tempted to use the word sexist quarrel ) over her friends and his. Thing is, it is OK for him to hang out with his TOUCHY, CLINGY , SLUTTY, BITCHY girl~friends, but it is NOT ok for her to hang out even to speak to her guy friend who is really close to her.

Where is the fairness in that?? I seem to hear that this often happens in many relationships. Sad right?

My friend insisted that it was not fair and that if she can’t speak to her friend, he can’t speak to his friends. His stupid answer was just a simple ‘no’.

I feel pity for my friend, having to go through all that. They argued for a bit but it was not settled and it sort of left her with a huge question mark as to what she should do.

My advice was, if he refuses to do it, she shouldn’t care as well. Its really unfair. I kind of asked her, if he is really worth all the trouble and she couldn’t answer. A year is still to early to tell if the relationship can work. Is that true? Hmm. I can’t answer that. I just felt really angry.

I don’t think its wrong to mix around. It gets wrong when it gets out of hand. If his girlfriend knows her limits, why can’t she hav guy friends? She can stand there and watch while other people touch her boyfriend.~ She has to " close one eye " because its normal. She on the other hand has never touched any guy. Is it fair? Nope~ I seriously don’t think so.

Sigh. After getting some pretty ear bleeding nagging from me, I hope she knows what to do. Kinda miss her in her fun mode.. Oh well…~

I really miss my sunshine.. Really like alot. Sigh. Oh well.. The person seems to be pretty busy with  things lately.. We hardly even speak. Weird I know but yea.

I can actually feel some comfort in being alone these days.. I’m not actually alone.. I have d hamsters and bambi to keep me company.. I also have my housemate Dita.. So yea, its nice..

I wentshopping today.. Bought like 4 tops.. Megasale ma..~ Haha. Err.. It was like at a super discounted rate actually.. lol.. So itw as all good..

Its crazy but I just came back from Melaka.. I totally enjoyed the place. Its beautiful and the people are friendly. I wanna go back again~ Haha..

Not really in the modd for writting actually.. Just bored.. lol..

" I’m looking for someone who is willing to spend some time with me. To share not only the wonderful moments in my life, but the sad and painful moments as well. If you are willing to do so for me, I will promise to do the same."

Beautiful isn’t it? I guess everyone is looking for that special someone to share moments in life with. Wonderful moments such is cuddling in the rain after a fight, when all that is needed is love and understanding. Sad moments shared when things do not go as planned or even painful moments when people are lost.

I wish I could have more wonderful moments. The most recent wonderful moments in my life would be getting high in Tioman. I have not uploaded the drinking session pictures yet. Lol. It was really nice. No one ended up getting sick and stuff so it was the nicest drinking session ever~!

Another moment would be walking around with my mum in Phuket shopping. Nice~!

Other than that, there are not many highlights in my life. I mean, I often feel alone and empty because according to Yeen, I think wayyyy toooo muchhhhh! Which I think is wrong. I mean, everyone spends a considerable time thinking of things in their life everyday right? So yea, I’m still normal. Lol. Umm, yea. I tend to over think situations and I always in every situation, expect for the worse.

" If I expect the worse, I will be less disappointed. " <– True isn’t it?!

My close friend told me a few weeks back that he is leaving next year to travel. He won’t be coming back for a long while. I was quite upset at first actually, I was being selfish. All I thought about was who was I going to confide in when I was sad, who would be the one to hang out with and just talk nonsense and have a nice time and who would always be there for me no matter what. After thinking it through, I feel that him leaving, is actually a good thing. It will get me on my feet again. I tend to depend on others too much lately I guess. Its all good now. I can deal with things on my own. ^_^

I really need my own space right now. I don’t know why. I just need to rethink my whole life and which direction its going. I’m really hoping its not going downhill. Haha.

" When I’m faced with a challenge, God will provide."

Thank you God for providing me with help everytime I reached a dead end. ^_^

Right now, I need to focus on my new job and have fun with my life. Lol. Life is, after all, short. ^_^

I just came back from a whole week of relaxing. Come to think of it, it was a rush at the beginning but it ended well. Lol.

I was in Pulau Tioman with Yeen, Bell and also Dita. Lol. Just us 4 girls. It was crazy. Crazy in a super fantastic way. Not all went as planned though. Sea sick struck! Turned out alright in the end. So its all good. ^_^

I came back and had to leave the next morning. Family holiday in Phuket. It felt pretty tiring because of the weather. It was hawwwwt! Err. Lotsa hotties though. Err. Haha.

The people are nice as well. friendly and helpful. I didn’t go to the beach much. Spent most of the time in the hotel room because it was hot. So it was pretty much a relaxing holiday. Lol. Yes, I feel pretty rested. Haha.

Now that I’m back, I gotta figure out what I wanna do with my life. Lol. I feel quite confused. I know what I want, I just gotta figure out whats the shortest way of getting it. Haha. No, its not what you think! Haha.

I wanna retire early and travel. I know, me! Travel! Thats something weird. Spending time with people who love to travel kinda gets you into the mood as well especially when I started traveling myself.

I kinda view things differently. I mean, going on vacation with my family, everything is pretty much prepared. But, going on holiday with friends, gives the word " holiday" a new meaning. Its the people I go with I guess.

If we all think alike, then everything clicks and everything goes smoothly! I quite like walking around myself and exploring places. It can get quite dangerous when you don’t really know where you’re going..

I’m usually not spontaneous. I like my things planned out. But, I realize I seem to change when I’m on holiday as I like the idea of doing things without planning it!

^_^